What I do all day.. hhh...

Feel need to share so many things but suddenly I feel really tired! Today we have quite a not so good day... still can thank God for His blessings though so this is not supposed to be a bad day at all in God.

I know I've blogged this morning..and now is nite already. My hubby is out of town for working..This morning was just perfect as usual... I sent my Clay to school at 6.40 AM and be back home to blog for a while, looking for some opps. Around 8 AM I was shocked with my new helper, she only been working here for a week, she wants to leave! It's so shocking for us as we think we are doing fine. I have done my best to make her feel at home. I even took her around Bandung, showed her famous building in Bandung and yesterday we went to a mall. I just thought my helpers are human and they need entertainment as well..and this morning I found something so contradictory.. she wanted to leave, that's it. I told her to stay until I find another one to replace her position but she refused to help me.

My friend Stacey said that I shouldn't complaint at all as I still have another maid with me. I know, Stacey.. :-) I try hard not to be sad... still I feel rejected as I try to be nice to her but she doesn't appreciate it at all. One more thing that makes me feel burdened, my maid is so sanguine and she needs a friend to work together. She will be gloomy all day and it really ruins our mood atmosphere. Cliff is crying a lot simply because babies can feel what we feel. Enough writing about maids.

Cliff's nose is wet all day today.. his cough is getting better after a month taking some medicine, but today he has so many mucus on his nose. :-(( My cough is nearly cured, and so is my maid. Clay still has flu a bit. Prayer please... This afternoon I have to meet a friend, so I brought Cliff and my helper to my sister's house. My mom is also there. Cliff refused to take a nap on bed may be because he couldn't breath because of his flu, and my helper, sitting on a chair, carried him while he is sleeping for half hour. I took them home and let my maid has her lunch on the way home. She only ate a bit and she felt dizzy she said. When we arrived home she vomited her lunch. She said she couldn't eat in a moving car... oh well... it's ok.. I gave her a herbal medicine to make her better.. then I have to leave her and Cliff at home to pick Clay from school.

It was raining heavily when I picked Clay up from school. I told Clay about the leaving maid and told Clay to be nice to our other maid. She is not healthy and I bet she feels sad and tired as well, so I asked Clay to be nice to her and to Cliff. I just want to create a good atmosphere at home. I didn't ask Clay how his day was...

That afternoon, I keep asking Clay to be nice and yield to Cliff. Sometimes they just grab each other and that makes mom crazy! I tried to take Cliff for a nap but Cliff doesn't seem to be sleepy at all... while Clay sitting on his desk trying to do his math homework, keep calling me asking to be accompanied. I was not so nice to Clay as I have become frustrated taking care of Cliff. I made him sad. No I don't scold him, I just was not smile and encouraging. Clay only did half of his math and he told me he was tired. So I let him to rest, I didn't force him to finish it. He took his favorite book and soon occupied with his book. I played with Cliff in the same room. Then Clay said to me, "Mom, did you know that today was a bad day at school.."

I was stunned, shocked. I thought it's me who has a bad day... I never thought about Clay's feelings! Oh I really feel guilty... and asked him to share what happened with him. Clay told me everything, not too important for adults but really matter for a kid of his age. I hugged him and he cried...we cried. I said we do have a bad day that's why we have to pray and tell God about it.
At night before Clay slept (Cliff was sleepy but so naughty! Refused to sleep and play around all the time!) I gave Clay a hug and kisses. I said to him, please always tell me your day at school on the way home. Sometimes I forget that you may have a bad day at school... please tell me. Clay cried again. I said,"Clay you are my good boy, I love you. Do you feel sad because our new maid left us?" He nodded.
"It's not your fault, ok. It's not my fault as well. We have done everything we could to make her feel at home. Don't feel bad ok."
He asked me why... I said,"She just wanted to leave. She doesn't want to work as a maid." (that's true)

Now the children are sleeping and I thought I have to take a rest now. Cliff might wakes up every single hour at night, he can't sleep well when he is sick. So I have to spare my energy...

By the way, there are many things I want to thank God before I sleep:

Dear Big Daddy, thank you so much for being with us in our gloomy days. Thank you for Your protection and guidance, especially to my kids.. When I was not around, Your eyes never let Clay go. You always watch him at school. Thank you dear God.

Here's Clay's monthly report I received today..


Thank you God for this smart young boy. Clay is such a blessing and comfort for us. Thank you for cute Cliff that drives me crazy but so funny. Thank you for this great moments I can spend with my sons and share our life. I am so sorry for all mistakes I've done today, Big Daddy. Please grant me patient and wisdom so I can raise my kids as You wish.

One more thing, thank you for sending me a friend to laugh before I sleep... have I thank You for my PR3? I guess I haven't... for this, I really thank you God!

In Jesus name, Amen.